Sunday 4 May 2014

Dream That Felt So Real...

Ever had a dream that felt so real...?
A dream that made you feel like you don't wanna get up from your sleep
and keep dreaming on...?
A dream... that actually made you really feel...
alive...?
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It was just a regular day.
I was preparing to go to work... but then I saw mum...
In an outfit that I haven't seen for quite some times already.
She looks sparkling...
Picture taken at Genting Highland on 1998, this is exactly how she looks like in the dream.
"Mum, where are you going...?"
"I'm fetching dad, you wanna come...?"
... her phone rang before I could say anything, but in my mind "Mum must be drunk again, haiizzz~..."

"Dad will be here today, get dressed well..."
I'm still with my thought that mum is drunk... so I moved on to my car, almost departing for work.
Until the sky turned cloudy and dark at instance.
As far as I loved rain, it was my first time fearing the dark sky.
It turned too swiftly...
So I got out from the car, running back into the house.

"Dad is here, son..."
"Mum, are you alright...? You're creeping me out. Just how many glasses did you drank last night that you're behaving like this..?!"
Mum walks out, approaching a taxi that parked around 20 meters away from our house.
I couldn't see clearly, but my curiousity drives me outside.
As a man stepped out from that taxi, a thunder struck the road just in from of my eyes..!
I couldn't believe what I saw..!
I shouted "MUM! GET BACK HERE! IT'S DANGEROUS...!"
Heavy rain dropped as heavily that it hurt the skin upon impact.
Exaggerated much, eh...?
... but that exactly how it feels like..!
Not a real picture, but best describes the situation.

Worrying that I might get struck by the lightning, I ran in.
Soaked... cold...
Lightning kept on striking the road, it made the whole earth shaking.
I'm worry about mum.
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A few moment later, mum came back with a smile on her face.
She's terribly soaked even her make up worn off her faces.
"Son, dad is here... say hi..."

A man... stood tall...
A height that was once very familiar...
The scent...
The clothes...
... and surprisingly, he's not wet at all...!
Approached me...
I can't really tell, but I can't see his eyes because he's still with his dark shades.
... but damn...
It's just.... too familiar.... too similar to the one I used to be with...
Dad in 1998, fine looking old man, huh...?

I still can't believe my eyes...
"It's dad, son..."
A huge loud thunder strikes again just after mum said that.
It's like it is forbidden for dad to be here...
Forbidden... to be resurrected...?
It is God's power, I don't know...
I can't really tell...
... but my instinct told me that, it IS my dad...

I walked towards him slowly.
Realizing that maybe his time is short, I ran onto him...
Hugging him...
Yes...
These arms... this height... this feeling...
these... heartbeats...
IT IS DAD, HE'S BACK...!

".. pa...?" I asked...
Maybe the rain was too loud, he couldn't catch it.
"Huh...?" he asked...
I looked up...
... then I shouted...
"PAAAAAA~...!"
He laughed and says "Ohhh~, pa..."
I don't know, but I think dad is here but with his memory a bit lost...
I don't think he remembered me well.
The very moment when I hugged him, a lot of things went through my mind.
"Dad, I'm gonna bring you to my workplace... I'm gonna bring you for a tour in Bintulu to see how developed it is now... I wanna let you see how I drives... I wanna let you see my girl... and most of all, I wanna take a lot a lot a lot of pictures with you..."

Just before I wanted to say those things out, my alarm rang...
MY SCUMBAG ALARM RANG...!
I woke up with tears...
"Dad..."
...
"I missed you a lot..."
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Dear God...
If the dream means anything, do tell me what it is...
I'm clueless...
Out of all the dreams I had about him, this one is too realistic...
...
God...
Is it possible...?
For Thy to bring him back to me...?
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Dad...
Wherever you are right now...
You know how I feel right now the most...
You've seen it by yourself...
I missed you a lot, dad...
Did I grow up according to plan...?
I grew up, dad...
I grew up...
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Bless us...
Watch over us...
We miss you...
Dad's last hug with mum on 2006

Dad's last hug with me on 2006

Our last dinner together on 2006

In loving memories... 2007

Dad, this is for you...
Look at me...
I'm growing well, didn't I...?
1993

1995

1998

26/4/2014
Thanks for those who read this lame entry of mine.
I'm keeping it here so I won't forget about it...

p/s: Soundtrack used "Perfect" by Simple Plan (Piano)